Posted on Wednesday, 19th November 2008 by Maritzia
ARRRRGGGHHHHH!! Another change card! They’re killing me here!
Today’s card is Judgement. Judgement is another card about change. It’s about letting go of the past and moving forward. About forgiveness, about moving away from things that aren’t working and embracing a new life.
But what new life? Every card I’ve pulled in the last week has been about change and transition, but I just don’t see what that transition is. What am I not leaving behind, what opportunity am I not embracing?
I do feel the change. I have for a month. More really. Since I was laid off back in August. I had a few weeks where I was just going with the flow, but slowly I felt a building excitement, a premonition of change, but in what context I can’t quite tell. Is it about the current job? Is it about my blogging? Is it about something completely unrelated to work? I just don’t know.
On top of Judgement, the Goddess card to day is Maeve. Among the many interpretations of this card is “A doorway of opportunity has opened up and you need to walk through it now.” How do I walk through the door if I can’t find it?
OK, I admit, there is one thing I haven’t let go of. I’ve talked before about the issue with taking COBRA for my health insurance and the fact that we really can’t afford it. I’d made the decision to forego COBRA, but I’ve been delaying informing my former employer. I have until mid December to pay, and I’ve been holding off in case something came up that suddenly allowed me to pay for the COBRA. I’d made the decision intellectually, but hadn’t embraced it emotionally.
So, I’ve done it. I just e-mailed Jan and told her I won’t be taking COBRA afterall. *sighs* Do I feel better? Not really. Don’t feel worse, either, though. But I’ve opened my hand and let it go. I think I’ll just mourn that loss for a little while.
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